Simply me

                                             

My first Birthday

       Hello, my name is Emely Narvaez.  I was born in a beautiful Island known as Puerto Rico twenty five years ago. I currently live in Boston, Ma and have lived here for the past twenty years. I don't remember much of Puerto Rico, but what I do remember is the feeling of community. Everyone new one another, everyone came and went as they pleased. I especially remember the feeling of grass on my feet as I ran barefoot everywhere. Looking back now, I wonder how my life would've turned out had my family not moved. My Family consist of three girls and two boys. I am the second eldest but act as though i'm the first born. My family unfortunately isn't very close, my two sisters and I were never taught to value and cherish one another. We don't function well under one roof. My youngest sister likes to tell everyone what to do; she's a dictator and it absolutely drives me mad. My oldest sister is quite the opposite, she believes the entire world is against her. She also believes i'm out to steal all her boyfriends when in reality I could care less about them. All in all we couldn't get any more dysfunctional. 



                                                       

Love the feeling of grass on my feet

  

            I usually spend 95% of my free time reading and harassing my four year old.  He's to independent for my liking so therefor I force him to hang out with me and take endless amounts of pictures with me. I nearly lost my son before and after he was born. Nathan was diagnosed with Tetralogy of Fallot when he was born.  Tetralogy of Fallot is a rare condition caused by a combination of four heart defects that are present at birth. These defects, which affect the structure of the heart, cause oxygen-poor blood to flow out of the heart and into the rest of the body. Infants and children with Tetralogy of Fallot usually have blue-tinged skin because their blood doesn't carry enough oxygen. As the doctors were describing the procedures and precautions I had to take In regards to Nathan's health I just lost it. Not only did I have to go through hell to keep him in my womb (my body rejects pregnancies) now I had to fight to keep him alive!! Nathan has gone through two heart surgeries and a spat of others. Nathan will always be my miracle baby and I thank God everyday for him. 



                                                   

Yet another picture in which I force Nathan to take with me 

                                                   

Nathan's first heart surgery at four months

 My coworkers and friends would describe me as resilient. I refuse to give up and be brought down. I'll be honest and admit that sometimes it's easier to give up then to fight. My teacher who shall not be named describes me as sarcastic and feisty. I can be very feisty when the situation calls for it. Most peoples impression of me is calm and collective; Which is far from the truth. I'd like to think that i'm adult enough to know when a situation calls for a reaction however, there are times in which i'm just fed up and loose it. Human nature at it's best. When people first meet me they never think i'm Hispanic, I always get Italian, Portuguese and even Jewish. I was told that I don't exude the attitude and cockiness of a Hispanic....what does that even mean???   

           #25  I choose to find hopeful and optimistic ways to look at this. 

 I have always                                                                                                                                           

Chosen to 

Hinder myself

Over the smallest interference 

Optimism eluded me 

Serenity baffled me

Envious of others 

Time finally caught up with me

Obstacles no longer 

Faced me                                                                                                                                       

Insecurities no longer held me 

Negative words 

Dissolved in my presence 

Hope and 

Optimism flourished

Pessimism vanished

Evil no longer prevailed 

Freedom of mind

Upheld me 

Light embraced me 

Awareness settled 

Notions of hope

Descended upon me 

Opportunities arose

Purpose ignited within me 

Transformation became me 

Inner peace 

Moved me 

Inspiration engulfed me 

Sense of pride 

Thrived within my being

Instinct propelled me forward 

Clarity though obscured was within my reach   

Willingness to be optimistic 

At all times changed preconceived thoughts of me

Yearnings for a better life 

Stimulated my soul into a 

Tranquil state of mind

Overcoming my pessimistic ways

Learning to accept change I

Overcame my fears of failure 

Optimism and hope to my

Knowledge were the best weapons

Any one could have 

Triumph and

Transformation

Humbled me
Insight into 
Self awareness became me